every day

Lately it feels like every single day I am reminded about how things are so much harder for our little ASD angel than for other kids.  When he was a baby we had no idea anything was different.  Then for a couple of years we knew and sometimes things were really tough, but sometimes things were almost normal and we didn't even really think about ASD for a while.  But it has been while now that it is almost every day we are reminded that things aren't the same for him as most other kids his age.  I wonder if this is just the way it is going to be as he gets older.  Are the differences going to become more and more noticeable as he gets older?  I keep hoping he will learn and catch up and things will be less noticeable, but am I just in denial?  Will we be able to forget that he is different? Should we even try?  Or should we embrace and accept it?

being glad even when I'm not

The other day I heard a story about two kids in my angel's first grade class, just a little crush thing between two students, stupid drama stuff.  And I said, "THAT is why I'm so glad that I have a child that is completely oblivious to anything social!"  And maybe it is true that I am glad that I don't have to worry about little kid crushes, but really I am just trying to find any reason that I can be glad and not sad that my little angel has no close friends other than his siblings.  Because, to be honest it almost breaks my heart every day when I ask him who he played with at recess and he says he played by himself.  But I am so grateful for his close relationships with his brother and sister.  They are the greatest playmates and they truly love to play together.  I know our children were all sent to us because our Heavenly Father knows and loves them and us.